There’s nothing more nerve wrecking than that first meet
The heart palpitations and thoughts of “damn I just want him to like me”
Or just hoping and praying that he’s not crazy.
The checking of the clothes and the hair
Making sure everything’s in order
I don’t want him thinking I look crazy having him ready to run across the border.
It’s that first hello that can make me or break me
That first smile that can either have him scared or drive him wild
That first hug that can make him want to pull away or make a child.
Meeting someone new I never know what to expect
It can be as bitter as a lime or as nice as a treat
But at the end of the date I can just pray our meeting doesn’t become bittersweet.
Inside she feels so empty.
her heart is cold as ice.
the tears are all dry
like the sahara desert.
she wonders the mystery of life.
where she will go next.
the feelings for others aren’t there
and she wishes she could care
for others but
she just doesn’t feel that compassion.
to her, love is nothing but a distraction
from the real world.
nothing but worry and stress.
taking care of others but not of herself
she just needs a release.
somewhere to go and breathe.
away from turmoil and annoyance
and from people who bring her down
about her weight and telling her
that her feelings don’t matter.
she needs to learn to feel again and be one
to find who she is in this world.
she needs an escape.
her soul is trapped and needs to be set free.
This will be the coldest winter I’ve ever experienced
My tears are cold as they roll down my cheek
But I know that this must be
I know that I must do the one thing I’ve waited so long to do
It’s time now
Time to break away from the pain
Time to breathe again
Time to relieve myself of the anchor that has held me down
Today’s the day for a new beginning.
Dear college student
You got this
You have the brains to make it
You’ve made it this far
And I know you’re struggling to make it through
Like everything is against you
And no matter how hard you try obstacles do their best to knock you down
But you must pick yourself up because you’re not done
That degree is there at the end of the stage
Waiting for your grasp
And when you flip that tassel
You can finally say
I did it.
Letter of Interest
You haven’t known me very long, but I wanted you to know I have an interest in you.
I want to know your mind.
Tell me your fears and your dreams.
Tell me your favorite memory as a child and your worst.
I want to know your favorite book or your opinion on politics even though I don’t have much my own.
I want to laugh at your corny jokes just because they’re from you.
I want to know your body.
Your personality makes me crave you.
I’ll give you my submission..dominate me at your will.
I want to appreciate your curves just as much as I hope you’d appreciate mine.
I want to know your soul.
I want to look deep..underneath all the skin.
I want us to both be fully naked..yet still clothed.
Both afraid to let each other in, but still willing to take such a chance.
I know you haven’t known me long, but I have an interest in you. And I was hoping you’d feel the same way too.
one day yours.
Nia- White supremacist wishing she and others like her didn’t exist.
Trayvon- Wanted nothing but skittles and tea but instead his life he had to plea.
Eric- Police didn’t take selling cigarettes for a joke so they decided he should choke.
Sandra-Stopped while going about her day, then killed in jail to be kept out of the way.
Alton- Just trying to sell CD’s just for the police to unnecessarily push him to his knees.
Philando-Killed in front of his girlfriend and child because doing the right thing must’ve made him seem wild.
Rekia- If she wasn’t killed in an off duty shooting then her justice wouldn’t need constituting.
Tarika- Killed from the mistake of a sound…maybe if police didn’t shoot blindly she’d still be around.
More and more are being added to the list
The injustice is insane
My heart will continue to hurt as we continue to die because of our skin
And until it stops we must continue to #SayTheirName.
It’s amazing when you look and see these people
These people that aren’t your family yet feel closer than some blood
People who would fight for you
Die for you
And although this world may seem so shitty
They make living in it worth while.
Just one word but it has so much meaning
And causes so much trouble.
Just one word but it has so much meaning
And is so hurtful.
Together these words cause pain
And right now my black people are suffering.
When will it end?
When violence and racism no longer coexist
The time here
The time is now
And it begins with us.
I laid my head on his shoulders with a sigh.
He asked me “What’s on your mind?”
I told him “Nothing and everything at the same time.”
We both looked out into the golden sky as the sun began to set wondering if life will ever be the same.
You took a step closer and I inhaled deeply.
I knew I was about to do something I shouldn’t.
Suddenly our lips pressed against one another…
That taste…I know it all too well.
Our lips released and the aftertaste lingered on.